My faith is not cliche. It can't be. When I say that I'm trusting in the Lord, it means just that, I'm trusting in Lord. I don't write this defensively, but with a desire to reclaim the simple truths over my life that could so easily be robbed by cliche and semantics in such a fragile time.
So I will...
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5
I don't understand, but with all my heart, every broken piece, let me trust in You, Lord.
Because...
"Shall not the judge of all the earth do what is right?" Genesis 18:25
You will not, and cannot commit injustice, and since "You alone hold the keys of death and Hades" (Rev. 1:18), I know You are in control.
In fact, I confess I may have spoken in haste that the locusts are continuing their destruction, but perhaps this is God's mercy manifest in my family. I just confess I don't understand the fullness of these circumstances, but desire to trust fully in the Lord. Either way, I pray to remain steadfast in the Presence of God. I want the peace that is found in abiding. Nothing less.
It's been hard to pray words, and even entering into worship brings a flood of emotions that can be too much to bear at times, but I have found that my heart resonates with the hymn "Be Thou My Vision", especially the last lines.
High King of Heaven my victory won,
may I reach Heaven's joys, O Bright Heaven's Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
still be my vision, O Ruler of all...
12.30.2010
12.21.2010
Those Damn Locusts
Driving through some southern state, stuck somewhere between grief and isolation in a tiny Toyota Corrolla with my riding buddy asleep, brake lights and parking lot traffic, I just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs *"THOSE DAMN LOCUSTS!"
This is unbelievable. I thought there would be so much more fruit. I had such a renewed faith for my dad's life since my mom died. I trusted that the Lord was going to do some major breakthroughs in this upcoming season. I believed this with all my heart. I know without a doubt that the week prior to his death, my dad's heart was stirred towards the Lord. I sense his heart was responding, there is evidence of that. I don't know the fullness, but I'm hopeful. I just wanted more.
I feel so robbed.
*See the book of Joel for the locust reference
This is unbelievable. I thought there would be so much more fruit. I had such a renewed faith for my dad's life since my mom died. I trusted that the Lord was going to do some major breakthroughs in this upcoming season. I believed this with all my heart. I know without a doubt that the week prior to his death, my dad's heart was stirred towards the Lord. I sense his heart was responding, there is evidence of that. I don't know the fullness, but I'm hopeful. I just wanted more.
I feel so robbed.
*See the book of Joel for the locust reference
12.13.2010
Let it be so...
Lord, You are more precious than silver
Lord, You are more costly than gold
Lord, You are more beautiful than diamonds
and nothing I desire compares with You.
Lord, You are more costly than gold
Lord, You are more beautiful than diamonds
and nothing I desire compares with You.
12.11.2010
Solomon's Sad State
The splendor of King Solomon was great. The wisdom he carried was out of this world (literally, given from heaven!) The son of David, fulfilling the dreams of his father. But the man had some issues. He loved the foreign women. And the foreign women loved other gods. And so God commanded Solomon not to intermarry because he knew his wives would lead him to worship other gods.
But.
1 Kings 11:2b "Nevertheless, Solomon held fast to them in love."
And surely, as Solomon grew old, his wives led him astray, and he did not follow the Lord completely as his father did.
Solomon's destiny was thwarted.
This is not the only place in scripture that teaches the lesson, that which you hold fast to in love is what you will obey. You cannot have two masters, you will love one and hate the other. If you hold fast to the Lord, the fruit will be obedience. If you hold fast in love of anything else, your destiny will be thwarted.
Let's pray to the Lord that He will give us eyes to see Him alone (because the things of this world often look appealing.) And that the worldly things that our hearts still hold fast to in love would be released and abandoned, considered absolute garbage as Paul says, for the sake of knowing Christ Jesus, our Lord.
And let's pray to the Lord that He would stir in our hearts a love that is focused and affectionate towards Him. That we would hold fast to Him, and that our destinies would not be thwarted. That God's purposes would be fulfilled. And that we would truly see His Kingdom come "on earth as it is in heaven!"
But.
1 Kings 11:2b "Nevertheless, Solomon held fast to them in love."
And surely, as Solomon grew old, his wives led him astray, and he did not follow the Lord completely as his father did.
Solomon's destiny was thwarted.
This is not the only place in scripture that teaches the lesson, that which you hold fast to in love is what you will obey. You cannot have two masters, you will love one and hate the other. If you hold fast to the Lord, the fruit will be obedience. If you hold fast in love of anything else, your destiny will be thwarted.
Let's pray to the Lord that He will give us eyes to see Him alone (because the things of this world often look appealing.) And that the worldly things that our hearts still hold fast to in love would be released and abandoned, considered absolute garbage as Paul says, for the sake of knowing Christ Jesus, our Lord.
And let's pray to the Lord that He would stir in our hearts a love that is focused and affectionate towards Him. That we would hold fast to Him, and that our destinies would not be thwarted. That God's purposes would be fulfilled. And that we would truly see His Kingdom come "on earth as it is in heaven!"
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